im moving....again.

so im moving again for the 7th time and it totally sucks....it also doesnt help that im getting help from a complete idiot aka my boyfriend he thinks hes always right in an situation  hes moved once in his whole life to school and then to his current house that he bought  the reason why im saying this is because we tried to get my couch out the door and aparantly it wouldnt fit  so i said well then how can it not fit if i got it up here thru this same exact door   hes so dumb and thinks hes always right so whatever i just had to vent.....wish me luck see ya blogger

I seriously need a vacation

what a stressful week this has been....I NEED a vacation. Paper after paper, making sure I have the right format, the right spelling, no fragments, runons, page numbers, blah, blah, blahhhhhhhhh!!! I will say I have learned a ton this semester...at least in two of my classes....the other two went right over my head...ethics pff..that's a lost cause all I care to remember about that class is that the Dallas Cowboys guy and how he tried to talk very superior with big words that didn't make any sense what so ever...and how the heck does a person own that much Dallas Cowboys stuff to have a different outfit for every day of the semester. if baffles me...whatevs its over with on Monday. I hope I pass that test! The other class State and Local Government...HA! dumbest class EVER! it really should be taken off the curriculum...or at least get a different teacher he was the worst one I have ever had and hes a Doctor!! I don't know how he did that...he cant even talk in complete sentences...every other word is umm...ahhh...ummm..ahh... oh well that will all be over with on Wednesday THANK GOD! May 11th can come any sooner!!!

Last blog....how sad.

This is the last blog for the school year and it is supposed to be about blogging in general. I really enjoyed blogging because its a nice and creative way to express what is bothering you or what is just on your mind. I had a lot of fun blogging and I think that I will continue to do it after this class is over...I think it also made the class fun and was a nice way to earn a few extra points. I also think it taught me a lot about myself and my writing style....for instance I usually only write about the things that interest me in great detail...all my really long blogs are a good example of that. It was fun and im glad Jen made us do this.

Jeff needs to take a chill pill

so this blog is a "my choice" blog and i decided to write about my friend Jeff....he is a spaz and should really learn to settle the fuck down. why? well let me tell you why...one night Jeff and my other friend Ashlyn..a.k.a 'K' came to my work to visit me and Jeff was being in one of those annoying moods and everything he was doing was pissing me off...i was trying to tell a story and he kept interrupting me...which is really rude...so i was getting upset. i just blew it off because i wasn't in the mood to argue and for him to get his panties in a bunch so i just shut up and kept on with my work i had to do before we closed. Then K asks him if he was still coming over to my apartment because we were all going to relax and watch movies...he says..."yes, but someone has to give me a ride to my apartment so i can get my stuff." He drove to my work so why in the hell would I or anyone have to give him a ride to HIS house....so then i said, "Why don't YOU drive YOUR pick-up to YOUR house to get YOUR stuff." he got so pissed off that he just left....then later we texted him and said that he should just get over it and he did...during this time we were at my friend Ashley's house to see her baby she just had about a week ago...Ashlyn asked Jeff are you still coming over to watch movies he goes yes i am 2 blocks away....i thought what the hell we are not there so ashlyn says we will be home in a bit we are at Ashley's seeing the baby...then Jeff proceeds to flip out and say we are bitches, cunts, and that he has lost all respect for us, and for us to never talk to him again. I was thinking what the fuck is his issue. he had no right to flip out on us...HE was the one that stormed out of tesoro because i told him straight up on how his plan for someone to give him a ride to HIS house was stupid as fuck. and it was HIS fault for not telling us he was on his way to our house...2 blocks away isn't enough time for someone to get across town....then the next day i texted him if he was still mad and he said yes...so i became the bigger person once again and apologized to him for apparently flipping out on him in tesoro and being rude or some shit.....I personally think he should have apologized for calling us bitches, cunts, and all that stuff, but he still hasn't said anything....JEFF IS A SPAZ AND I CANT BELIEVE I HAD TO APOLOGIZE FOR SOMETHING THAT I SAID THAT MADE TOTAL SENSE.....HE IS CRAZY AND I WANT TO PUNCH HIM.

Senses

So this blog has to be about senses....the strongest sense I have is smell. I love the smell of my shampoo and conditioner. Its called Bed Head Dumb Blonde. I have brown hair but the name doesn't mean anything its for dry damaged hair and I dye my hair all the time so it is pretty dried out. I love it so much it smells like Cherry's and the smell lasts for a long time I can get out of the shower blow dry my hair and style it and the smell is still there. I can often catch myself sniffing it while at work or where ever I am. So pretty much I just love the smell of any kind of hair product. whenever I go shopping for a new hairspray or something like that I will usually pick the one that smells the best. I could care less about cost or stuff like that I just like the smell.

Dialogue

This is how I found out my 19 year old cousin Tanner was going to have a baby with his psycho girlfriend Summer. I will never forget it. Now I think it is kind of funny that I found out thru his friend...but at the time I was pretty upset.

"I know something about your cousin that you are not supposed to know," said Jeff.
"ohhh really...what is it," I asked.
"I cant tell you, he will be so pissed at me, and plus he wants to tell you himself."
"Jeff, you cant just say that and not tell me...I promise I wont say anything, I'm sure it isn't that bad."
"Okay, but you have to promise you wont get mad or say that I told you."
"I promise...the things he does now don't really shock me that much anymore."
"Okay...summer is pregnant."
"WHAT!!! no way. you are lying."
"No I'm dead serious I heard it at school and then I texted him about it and he said it was true, but not to tell you because he knows you will be mad and he wanted to tell you himself."
"Oh my god I seriously cannot believe this and I cannot believe he didn't tell me, I'm saying something to him but I wont mention your name I swear."
"Okay good."
"Tanner do you have something to tell me that you are too afraid to?"
"Who told you?"
"It doesnt matter who told me......I cant believe that you would have thought I would have been mad about something so serious like this."
"It was Jeff wasnt it?"
"Yeah it was Jeff, but that doesnt matter now...Im coming over to the farm and we can talk about this in person."
"Okay that sounds great. I really need you and your advise right now."
"I know i'll be there in a few."

classified

AD:
Designer grade 9 lamb leather curved black sofa and matching recliner. Both in perfect condition. No smoking, pets or children ever. 5 yrs old. Custom made in Scottsdale. $1500

They must be selling this sofa and chair to go back to Scottsdale....because they are asking for 1500 bucks and that must be for their plane tickets. But if its designer grade 9 lamb leather that must mean their already rich and don't necessarily need the money for tickets so it must be getting spent for spending money while their on vacation. Or else maybe their high class has run out and they had to file for bankruptcy and were forced to sell the sofa and chair because they couldn't afford their mortgage anymore.

TANNA!!!

So my cousin Tanner...aka Tanna...will be home in 8 days!! I cannot wait for this because he is my best friend and I don't know what i would do with out him in my life....he has always been there for me thru the hardest times in life and he has been there for the best times!! I think I can honestly say there is no one else that knows me better than him...not even my mother.
We grew up together and everyone thought we were twins because we were inseparable and basically conjoined at the hip. I think of him as my little brother...even tho he is super protective of me and wouldn't let anything bad happen to me...I remember the first time he met one of my first boyfriends....we walked up to tanna and tony had his arm around me and tanna punched him in the face and screamed "DUDE...SHES GOT A BOYFRIEND!" right after he punched him I was like Tanna...meet Tony...my boyfriend...he felt like total shit after that....but they got to be really close later on down the relationship...until me and tony broke up and then tanna wanted to kill him....
I text Tanna every morning and tell him the count down till he is home....I'm super excited for the day I get to text him... ONE MORE F-ING DAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! that will be so exciting!!!!! 

itchy feet

my feet are very sensitive and ticklish...if thats how you spell it....so I hate when they become itchy...its pretty much impossible for me to itch them without laughing or having it hurt. the one thing I like to do is rub my feet across carpet, for some reason it feels sooo good! I dont really know what else to say about itchy feet, but that it sucks and I wish it never happened. I just think feet are gross to begin with...I dont like my feet or any one elses...especially touching them or having someone else touch mine. toe nails are probably the grossest things EVERRRRRR!!!! Im getting grossed out right now even thinking about them...ewwww!!

Hundreds of things

Hate

1. my dad
2. black and brown together
3. the word "actually"
4. the gophers
5. being broke
6. getting my period...too much info? sorry!
7. dirty dishes
8. things that are broken
9. not having a peep hole on my door
10. phone numbers I dont know....especially when they call me
11. jeans when they get stretched out and become saggy
12. crying
13. bills
14. moving
15. math
16. glass objects
17. canadians when they are in egf or gf
18. craig sheer...gabe knows what I mean
19. wearing hats
20. gas prices
21. my cousins girl friend
22. mean people
23. lindsey lohan
24. fords
25. mid size pick ups...just drive a car
26. filling propane in the rain or when its like 50 below
27. nascar
28. St. Cloud State
29. being rushed
30. the dentist
31. the doctor
32. traffic
33. my dresser
34. dirty mirrors
35. tests
36. golf
37. alarm clocks
38. reba
39. most rap music
40. broken zippers
41. mini vans
42. fake people
43. tattoos on necks
44. musicals
45. the smell of grease
46. coffee
47. my love handles
48. being smothered
49. olives
50. tomatoes
51. blood
52. needles
53. drunk people when im not drunk
54. clingy people
55. john deere...case is waaaayyyyy better!!!
56. when the temp reaches 80 or above! way too hot for me
57. dry skin
58. things that expire
59. being scared
60. pack rats
61. when computers freeze up
62. going to work at 530 am
63. being sun burned
64. kate gosslin...shes a bitch
65. death
66. my state and local government class
67. getting in trouble for something i didnt do
68. things that are touch screen
69. bossy people
70. driving in fargo
71. forgetting
72. cops
73. math...im putting it down again because I really hate it
74. falling
75. icy roads
76. paper cuts
77. long lines
78. not being 21...only 3 more months to go!!
79. a messy house
80. white bread
81. over priced items
82. valentines day
83. easter sunday mass....its waayy to long
84. over religous people
85. people who think they are always right, all the time
86. a dirty car
87. 32 avenue road....they really need to fix it
88. when clothes shrink
89. white walls
90. goths
91. hot topic in the mall...wothless store
92. public bathrooms
93. licking envelopes
94. stubborness
95. sweating
96. having to get oil changes
97. snakes
98. spiders
99. beggers
100. being sad

Hundreds of things

Like

1. my mom
2. my family
3. coach
4. my bed
5. the buckle
6. apples
7. My friends
8. warmth
9. snow (sometimes)
10. my phone
11. BBM
12. my vehicle
13. job...sorta
14. school
15. hairspray
16. my boyfriend....when hes not being retarded haha!
17. country music
18. the color pink
19. the color green
20. FIGHTING SIOUX
21. The vikings...when they win....if thats even possible
22. my couches
23. my rachael ray cooking stuff
24. MONEY!!
25. love
26. happiness
27. christmas
28. my birthday
29. cable
30. being debt free!!
31. color pencils
32. sharpies
33. Arctic cat
34. chevy
35. diesel pick ups
36. farmers at my work
37. my computer
38. getting my nails done
39. getting my hair done
40. playing in the mud
41. going to the lake
42. hunting
43. eating!
44. working out
45. taking showers
46. bobby pins
47. sweatshirts
48. 4 wheel drive!
49. my baby blankie
50. animals!
51. sleeping
52. shopping
53. subway
54. locks on doors
55. auto start!
56. front row parking
57. 4th of July
58. ice water
59. carrots
60. writing
61. talking
62. texting
63. laughing a lot
64. memories of good times
65. camo
66. pictures
67. toilet paper
68. beet harvest
69. god
70. church
71. music
72. the smell of my grandmas house
73. chinese food
74. the north face
75. socks
76. google
77. the time 11:11 pm or am doesnt matter
78. belts
79. mascara
80. sweaters
81. flip flops
82. jet skiing
83. payday
84. 24 hour places
85. sams club
86. tennis
87. jeans
88. being hugged
89. the weather channel
90. cleaning
91. pawn stars
92. clocks
93. midol
94. movies
95. relaxing
96. my inhaler
97. mickeys golden light
98. oslo mn
99. the family farm
100. me!

my choice when im wasted

so its 110 am and im wasted thing about nothing just chillin with some friends and livin life to the fullest.....me and my friend paigey went out to eat at red lobster tonight it was so much fun...we talked about losing weight and how hard it can be...we decided that each other need to motivate us...i know its sorta dumb to be blogging when im drunk and have jens class at 12 tomorrow, but i have my paper done so i think its completley okay.... my roommate gabe is the best in the world....she in one of my closest friends and i think we get along super good....she loves to party and i usually just stay home but today i had a hard day in peer review for creative writing.....i had to mention something about my grandpa and i broke down....no one knows how much i miss him.....he meant the world to me and he still does he is my hero and i miss him sooooooooooooooooooooo......much!!!!!!!!!! i would give anything to be with him right now....i want to end this saying I LOVE YOU GIMPS!!! and miss you more than anything in the world....     :(

More Than A Memory

I have a lot of memories built up in my brain, but the one that stands out to me the most is when my cousin Tanner, and I snuck out of the house for the first time. It was a summer night and I was over at my cousins house dinging around in the shop with him and my uncle....he's a farmer so he has a lot of useless junk that's fun for a kid to rummage through. It was getting late so my aunt called my mom and said that I was just going to sleep over for the night. It was probably about 11pm and we were told to go to bed...being 10 years old and we both have a severe case of ADHD that was nearly impossible. We both lay in bed thinking of how fun it would be to go outside and drive the brand new go-cart that I had just got for my 10th birthday...it didn't have any headlights so now when I think about it today it sounds really dumb but we were some pretty goofy and daring kids so we didn't care. Anyways, we decided to go for it and try to get out without my uncle hearing us...we proceed to crawl down the stairs, but being its an old farm house every step you take the floor creeks in return. We made it down the stairs and out the back door. It was amazing he didn't hear us!! Little did we know he had heard us and was watching us out the upstairs window the whole time...we jumped in the go-cart and took off for the path in the woods that lead to our grandparents house. We walked, ran, and drove that path a bunch of times a day...so with no head lights it wasn't a real big concern. We made it to our grandparents lot and all we had to do is stay out of the way of our grandmas HUGE metal clothes line polls. During all of this crazyness my uncle had gotten on the phone with my grandpa and told him to watch out the patio window because we were coming thru his back yard and he told him to stop us because we were supposed to be in bed. As soon as we drove to about the middle of the yard our grandpa turns on a huge deer shiner spot light....not only did it scare the living hell out of us, but it also blinded us and we wrapped my brand new go-cart around the poll. He ran down to us to see if we were allright and we were, but just really scared for the consequences of our actions. He told us to get inside and get to bed because my uncle was mad as hell...the next day we woke up and ran outside to see the damage of the go-cart....but it was gone!!! Apparently, my grandpa brought it in to get fixed. I couldn't wait to get it back and rampage thru the country side in it. About a week later I saw him driving down the long gravel road that lead to his back shed...my cousin and I ran to him as he was getting the go-cart out of the back of his pick-up and he told us "get the heck out of here the go-cart is off limits for the rest of the summer"....I was devistated. He chained it up ironically to the clothes line poll and told us not to touch it. I cried and cried for the rest of the day....I was grandpas little girl so that rule lasted about 3 hours and he unchained it and gave it back to me.

quote

"Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you."

Its out of the bible and I keep it in my wallet. I love this because no matter where you go or what you face god is there to protect you. He tells you to be strong in any situation that comes your way and to not be afraid because god is there to give you advice and guide you thru anything. Also because he will never leave you and is always by your side. Its my favorite!!!

my choice

so this weeks blog is about my state and local government teacher....he sucks. plain and simple. he has got to be the most boring and monotoned person i have ever met in my life. I hate going to that class its my last class of the day so I always have the urge to skip. Ill tell you a little bit about him....he has all of our names on individual note cards and that is how he takes roll every day. on those note cards it has our name, where were from, how many credits we have and the reason why we took this course. first of all why does he need to know how many credits we have? I personally think its none of his damn business. and it also has nothing to do with the class. it takes about 10 minutes each day to take roll when he could just hand around a sheet for us to put our name on....but whatever he's weird so I guess that's a good enough reason for him to do so.  another one of his weird rules is there is no eating in class also if you have a drink it has to have a cap on it or its not allowed......that right there reminds me of high school......i don't know if he knows this but were in college now so maybe he should get caught up with the right time. also he says that his class is a public speaking class.....if i would have known that i would have never signed up for it....i never knew state and local government was code for public speaking. and he of all people should probably re take a public speaking class because every other word that comes out of his mouth is ummmmm.....ummmmmm......ummmm!!!! it drives me crazy!!!!!!! so for anyone that is thinking about taking his class....DONT!!!! or at least take it with a different teacher because he will drive you nuts!!! I feel so much better now that i have vented my thoughts on him!!

blogasize

The rules:

1. link to the person who tagged you
2. post these rules on your blog
3. tell 6 quirks
4. tag 3 bloggers to do the same
5. leave them a comment to let them know you've tagged them

My Quirks:

1. This may sound really weird but for some reason I cannot stand it when people wear the colors black and brown together as an outfit.....they do not match, so people should really stop it.
2. I also cannot stand the word "actually".... whenever some one says that word it makes me cringe and it also makes me think the person using the word is very stuck up and always has to be right on whatever they are talking about.
3. I am very scared to grow up...this is my third year at northland and Istill havent picked a program to go into....I dont want to pick anything. Every morning before I open my eyes I wish that I was back to being a kid. I had the best childhood ever!!! I grew up in the country, we had no rules out there, no bills, and most important no worries. Now I worry about everything...people who know me dont see that side of me because for the most part I put on the act of "I dont care" but deep down I do and im very scared of whats gunna come next. life is scary and for the people who say its not....they are lying thru their teeth.
4.  I love hair....yeah that may sound weird but I will tell you why I love it...family and friends have been telling me for all my life that becoming a beautician was my calling. If you look at me I could really care less what mine looks like because I dont have time to do it. As for other people I find it soothing to curl, crimp, or cut theirs. Whenever I give my mom hair cuts or style it for her when she has something to look nice for it takes me to my own little world I feel at peace and slows down time...but like I said in the previous quirk im scared to death to do that for my profession. 
5. I have a fear of commitment. My parents got divorced when I was in the 8th grade and being the only child I had no one to talk about it to except for my cousins but all their parents are still together to this day so they didnt really have any advise to give either. So when my boyfriend of over 3 years talks about marriage I usually just go along with it, but to myself I dont want to get married because im afraid that what happened to my parents will happen to me.
6. I love to play tennis....however, I havent done that in about 2 years and hope to start really soon. The only thing that is holding me back is having someone else to play with that knows what they are doing and can keep a game going without having to stop after every hit.

Three people I tagged are......

• Wild at Heart
• This is me talking
• a well of words

why write

So it took me forever to think of a name and I still dont like it...but polish thoughts explains me pretty well I think so Ill stick with it. anyways....back to the real topic of this blog, why write. I write to releave stress and to plan things that are going to happen in my life. Such as I made a huge list of what im going to buy when I get my tax money back this year and when I recieve financial aid, it includes coach shoes, wallet, and possibly a new purse, along with clothes, a new bed set and many other things. I know spending my financial aid on that stuff may sound stupid to some people because its meant to be spent towards schooling.....but I am very fortunate to have a very loving gramma and grampa that pay for my college....sooooo buying some stuff that I want with money that im going to have to pay back anyways it just fine with me! I also write to releave stress.....a college students life can become very stressful in a matter of minutes. I work full time at a gas station, go to school full time, manage having a boyfriend....who is in wahpeton going to college and even tho he's 2 and a half hours away puts more stress on me than anything else. On top of that I have tons of bills that have to be paid every month and in the mix of all that trying to have a social life with my friends. so whenever I feel melt down coming on I write a HUGE list of all the good things in my life to get my spirits up. Thats why I write it helps me stay sane.